It’s feature Friday 💃💃….here’s an article just for you (you’re just too special) from our guest writer…..
Today, I hold the towel in my hand. From the depths of my heart, I want to throw in the towel; I want to give up.
For six years now, I have been in and out of the ring, fighting temptations. It has been draining.
There have been times when I enjoyed resounding victory and others when it was defeat. Demoralizing defeat. Over and over again.
Yesterday, I lost yet another battle. I mean c’mon. Three defeats in two days. How in the world am I expected to win every single battle😖?
The opponents are diverse; some dark and deadly, others slippery and seductive.
I rub my temples as I consider the level of perfection that is required of me. Absolute perfection. This is frustrating for me. I don’t know if I can take it any longer.
As I sat nursing my wounds, my trainer appeared. I sighed. He was a reminder of my shortcomings and weakness. All through his career, he never lost a fight. With my head still lowered, I spoke up. “Hey boss, I messed up again. It must hurt you to see me tarnish your legacy repeatedly. I’m sorry.” The boss didn’t reply. He must be so disappointed in me.
I continued, “Well, I’m throwing in the towel. I quit!! I’m sure the effort you are making regarding my career would be better used to help other better fighters. I’m sorry.”
For a few minutes, the Boss kept quiet. The silence was unnerving for me.
Then, he spoke. “Ayanfe, three years ago your wife gave birth to your beautiful daughter. How did you feel whenever your baby tried to walk, but fell? Sad? Of course. But also, you were encouraged that she tried. You gave her your hands and helped her to walk. Now, she is walking well. There are still times now, when she slips and falls, but then you still encourage her.
That’s the same way it is with us – you and I.
Whenever you mess up, I am sad, but then I am with you, cheering you and urging you to get up. However, although your baby will outgrow you and will learn to walk without you, the same does not apply in our relationship. You cannot win any fight without me. You cannot outgrow me. You must keep hearing from me and obeying my instructions.
I’ll always be with you; you will never walk alone. Don’t focus on the streak. Don’t count the dates. Don’t. Just take it one step at a time. One punch at a time. One victory after the other. You’ll be fine, my boy. You’ll be fine.
At this point, I was in tears. “Boss. Thank you. Thank you for not giving up on me, despite my defeats. Thank you for assuring me of your Help at every point. Thank you, Boss. Thank you!”
Always remember that you’re never alone and…
Writer: Iremide Akinsola
mood right now
PS: on this day (06.07.18), I had an oral exam. Didn’t seem so good but just like Jesus (“and he will delight in the fear of the Lord . He will not judge by what he sees with his eyes, or decide by what he hears with his ears; Isaiah 11:3 NIV”), I won’t judge by how the exam went.
I’m trusting God for my testimony😆😆